It's About Me

Oh lawdy! Have I got some news! Oh lawdy! Am I gonna be in trouble! But I am so happy, so proud, so excited to announce:

Vixen

And she’s all mine! Beautiful, beautiful baby! And I can’t wait to get my hands on her and introduce her to the boys. I can just smell her now. Ahhhhhhhh.

“At that time we were completely overwhelmed, the burden was more than we could bear, in fact we told ourselves that this was the end. Yet we believe now that we had this experience of coming to the end of our tether that we might learn to trust, not in ourselves, but in God who can raise the dead.” 2 Corinthians 1:8-9 (PH)

When you face a dead end, you may start asking, “What’s going on, God? Did I miss your will?” Keep in mind that dead ends are part of God’s plan for you.

When the pursuit of your dream deteriorates from difficult to impossible; when the situation looks hopeless, congratulations! You’re in good company.

Even Paul went through dead ends: “At that time we were completely overwhelmed, the burden was more than we could bear, in fact we told ourselves that this was the end. Yet we believe now that we had this experience of coming to the end of our tether that we might learn to trust, not in ourselves, but in God who can raise the dead.” (2 Corinthians 1:8-9 PH)

If God can raise people physically, he can raise people who are dead emotionally. He can raise a dead marriage. He can resurrect a dead career. He can resurrect you from a health problem. If God can raise the dead, he can do anything.

In Abraham’s situation, God said, “I want you to become the father of a nation,” but then Abraham had to wait until he was ninety-nine years old before he had his first child. The Bible shows Abraham’s situation going from difficult to impossible. He looks at his body and says, “No way!” Then he looks at his wife and says, “Double no way!”

But Sarah got pregnant and they laughed about it. When the baby was born, they named him Isaac, which means laughter.
God often lets problems become impossibilities. The disciples planned to follow Jesus. They thought he was the Messiah, but then the next thing they know Jesus is hanging on the cross, dying. Was this a dead end for the disciples? For three days it seemed that way, but then Jesus walked out of the tomb.

When you face a dead end, you may start asking, “What’s going on, God? Did I miss your will? Your plan? Have I missed your vision?” Keep in mind that dead ends are part of God’s plan for you.

What’s the best response to a dead end? “He has delivered us from such a terrible death, and He will deliver us; we have placed our hope in Him that He will deliver us again.” (2 Corinthians 1:10 HCSB)

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I’m as confused as I have been. But at least I know who’s in charge. And that’s a GREAT thing. Because…I’m an idiot.

Remember when summer vacation meant freedom? Freedom from school and all of it’s responsibilities. When running barefoot, shorts, warm summer breezes, and the thrill of driving your first car was all that was on your mind?

If kids knew what we knew they wouldn’t wish their lives away. I remember being 13. I wanted to be 16. When I was 16 I wanted to be 18. When I was 18 I wanted to be 21. Now, I’d like to be 21 again! LOL.

I guess if my childhood were better I’d like to try the teens again but for me they were as miserable as life could have possibly been. The mental and physical abuse was not pretty. Glad to have that done.

It’d be most fun to go back with all the knowledge I’ve got now. I’d be a genius. LOLLOLOlo. I’d probably still make a bunch of mistakes. But I wouldn’t make the same ones.

I hope. 

Life is strange and weird and fun and sad. I’m glad to be given the blessings I’ve had but the heartaches and pain too. It’s shaped me to who I am, and who I’m becoming, and that’s okay.

I’d like to go back to those happy care free days of youth and actually enjoy them. I’d do it different that’s for sure. If I had known then how much I would work as an adult…I might have taken more than just Wednesday off for bowling league during high school!

I’d rethink the decision to smoke and probably adjust a few boyfriends and dates as well. One night in particular just months before graduation left a pretty deep scar in my soul that’s been difficult to overcome.

I wonder how different life would be if you could makes changes and adjustments to the past. God doesn’t cause bad things to happen, and we’re given free will. He works with our own sin and fallicies to mold us to his purpose. Would I be here today if I could change a few things? Would I be wondering about life and purpose, past and future, and my place in it?

I don’t know. All I can do right now is talk to him about it like I did dad today. Because ultimately he knows best. And sometimes I really just need to learn to shut up and listen. Even if it’s not what I want to hear.