Why is it, after all these years I feel like having a cigarette? Why after all these years I’d like to be smoking? I’m such an addict. I swear I sometimes feel like I’m going through withdrawals. And I’m not. But I can’t catch my breath like I’m waitin for that deep inhale. I wish that I had never started so many years ago.

I wish I had never started drinking so much wine after mom died. Not for the same reason tho. It made me ‘fat’ and at 43, going through menopause, quitting smoking, and having a broke thyroid it’s hard to lose weight.

I’m determined tho to get in shape. The hunka is on a fitness plan to work those stints and his new heart blood flow. If he gets all buff he’ll trade me in on a younger, better model. And I’d hate to have kill him. LOL

I bet I’m sore tomorrow after all the archery today.

My nap today is working against me tonight.

On to the next…