It's About Me

Archive for October, 2008

Got this in my morning devotional and it’s been weighing on me: Don’t use foul or abusive language. Let everything you say be good and helpful, so that your words will be an encouragement to those who hear them. Ephesians 4:29. And this: Proverbs 18:13 (NLT) says, What a shame, what folly, to give advice before listening to the facts!

The Bible is always so accurate, and we can learn so much sometimes by keeping our mouths shut. Sometimes silence is the best form of communication. Hard for me though…I’m kin to my mother. She always had an opinion too. Sometimes though, she just didn’t announce it to everyone. She thought it though. Damn I miss her. I look at that fishing photo on her blog, and I see those eyes, and I think this ordeal has been some kind of joke. I barely remember the sick person of just a few weeks ago. I remember my mother at her strongest, and when I do that’s when I hurt the most.

I’ve been living in denial mostly these past few weeks. Just ignoring my hurt, and moving on to life’s dulldrums and keeping busy. But if I’m drawn to her blog, I see her, the alive, strong ‘her’ and I ache to my very core. I call Bill every night like I used to mom. The poor guy probably wishes I’d let up. But I miss her.

My name is shelly haffly. This is my blog.

If you don’t like what I say, don’t read it. That’s pretty simple, right? Great. Glad we got that figured out.

If I wanted comments, I would have put that ability on here. Please keep them to yourself. I am not interested.

I have so much to talk about today, but I am desperately trying to stay on topic and get my work done after being in the twilight zone for what seems an eternity. I can’t seem to focus, which is normal for what has been going on, but today it’s for a good thing.

Our puppy, Cassie Ruth, was born 4 weeks ago today and we were not allowed to see her until now. We made a date with the breeder to go see our new baby. Friday!! I am so excited. There’s nothing like a baby to renew your spirit. We named her after Ma, and now that my mother has passed I feel we might have chosen something along those lines, but….my beautiful Taz was named after mom, so Ma gets the new pup.

I am sure there are horses in my future that can be named after mom in some way to honor her. But this pup, is Miss Cassie. I cannot wait to see her!!!!! Is there anything more heavenly than puppy sighs and puppy kisses?! Oh, I just don’t think so. I’m giddy with excitement. Poor little Gauge won’t know what hit him.